Im sure if its gets to him mate he will appreciate it. I fucking would.

Awful story there Shaun, hit me for six. I've never listened to LCD Soundsystem before but that track is quite the belter. Will have to download the album later.

Tragic story, can't imagine what that must be like.

Your post on the blog about this introduced me to this track, cracker of a tune.

Couple of others close to my heart -





(The 2nd verse is the best spitting ive ever heard to date)

Just a few, various reasons too

Nice one Turt.


This blew me away first time I heard it.

Wow,that story....emotional suff.

http://youtu.be/6o9kM0Y1c44


An Arsenal anthem.

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Cracking tune this. Best song ever probably not but remember first time I heard them play this live.

"weve got Carlton Palmer, he smokes marajuana....na na na na na!"

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"weve got Carlton Palmer, he smokes marajuana....na na na na na!"

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That bloke was a freak, smallest head ever on a grown man.

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Sorry for the long story but it's the only way I can explain my love for this song.
I heard about this project that was being done by LCD Soundsystem in collaboration with Nike where they were making an album to supposedly work out to, I did some digging out of curiosity as I wanted to know what they had churned out as the majority of DFA records is usually a good listen so I eventually found this white label promo cd that had the first 2 tracks on it, I bought it as a bootleg for £8 and it was a bit sketchy but the second track that builds up from the initial space sound just beamed me, what a fucking record and I pre ordered the big double gate album "45:33", when it arrived it was without doubt the best thing music wise I had bought in years but purely for track 2.
I was going through a really intense and shite breakup at the time with someone who I had a son with, she was a complete nutcase and after every visit I'd go back to my apartment and I'd play this and it would just smooth itself out, this record is just my son all over, from the first strike of the piano that fades in low and slow I would sit there and soak it up and be thankful that I had him.
This was 2006 leading into 2007 and I'd been split up a while now but seeing my son every Monday. Wednesday, Friday and 2 full weekends out of the 4 a month which was great, but as time grew she completely lost the plot and throughout 2007 I went through hell with her to get to see him being attacked with pan's and knives when I went round just complete fucking hell, this record was prominent throughout this and in July 2007 I met Kell purely by chance of me being a bit of a sex pest at the time, I would play her this record and it was part of the start of our relationship and eventual marriage, it was there through the great times and the down times.
In the October I finally told my ex that I was seeing someone else to which she went completely scatty and was referred to doctor's and supposedly put on treatment like anti depressants, there was various thing's going on between the 2 families at this time and I went and started a legal process to gain full time access of my son, when this was going through she then claimed that her deterioration was due to her developing cancer and she only had month's to live, and I was approached by her and her family and asked to finish my new relationship and move back in with her full time until she died and then take hold of my son, bearing in mind I fucking hated this woman and her family and I refused as morally it just didn't sit right with me and I never trusted them, we paid in the end to send her to see a specialist and she refused point blank saying that this was her time.
The one day in early December I had a text from her saying to go up as she had something final to tell me, I refused and I was in Wales anyway, that day on December 9th 2007 she murdered my son and then committed suicide.
We found out at a later stage that in one room she had a large knife laid out which was meant for me, then we found out that she lied to my family and hers and she didn't have cancer as it was a ploy to split me up.
Kell was still living in Cardiff at this time and I needed my own space still, During my darkest time's on my own I would open this record and from that first needle drop I would remember everything that I had with my son, all those precious time's were opened up when I played it, it helped me get out of that place and into a new thinking, it's more than just a record and the emotional attachment I have with it is unrivaled.
It was very much my record now and although I put it in a few home mixtapes during that 2007 I didn't share it anymore I just played it on my own whenever I needed it, I proposed to my wife on valentines day 2008 and decided to move forward take what I had and to build on it, through the build up to my wedding in the August I took a box of records to Wilksy's house in Newport (SoulStylist) and we just took a load of E and played each other the records we had, I had to share this record with him, I'm glad I got the chance as I wouldn't have played it to anybody else, he was hooked on it and I could tell it hit him as hard as it hit me the first time I heard it, that emotional tie I've got with it was now shared and he knew what it meant to me, we played it 36 times in a row 7 minutes each time until his neighbours banged the wall, on that night I took it from just being mine to be able to share it, this was my life on vinyl and I could finally see so much good in it that I could play it and feel the joy in it again as opposed to dwelling on a time that hurt so much.
Over the next year or 2 I started DJ'ing again as it was my focus, my release and my way of doing something in Lewis's memory and pushing something good out of it, which is part of how Boogie Cartel come about, because if I hadn't started playing again I wouldn't be spending all this time with Wilksy and our friends and playing records together putting our night on and once it hit home the importance of all this it was without doubt the best decision I had made since I decided to get married.
Which is why I get so much joy out of playing this record out, it's a continuous source of relief, joy, and above all when I play it, it remind's of how I am where I am today and how playing records with Wilksy opened my life back up to the full extent again.
This record touch's me in places that no woman ever could, and fill's gap's in my heart and soul that nothing else ever could, I played this on new years eve again while out and watching it fill the room with love and seeing Wilksys face beam just put's the icing on the cake of this record.
A long one I know but I wanted to explain why it mean's so much and that the power of music can indeed heal.
If your not into music you won't get this post but if your a music head you'll know what I mean.

http://soundcloud.com/captainturtle/new-...eve-2011-boogie

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What a tragic story. Heartfelt condolences even though your loss is over 5 years ago the pain never goes away. I lost a 6 month old daughter in 83 to a incurable genetic disease so can only imagine what you went through as I knew she was going to die before her first birthday. I have always been into music and football they are both my hobbies still, one sometimes greater than the other but have always been there. When Michelle died I was in a mess and never really had some music to remember her by as such like you have with the above track. I was already in pieces as my mother had died 3 days after Michelle was born and then Michelle died 6 months later in my arms. Then one day a few years later I was round at at DJ friend of mine ( maybe you will have heard of him Barrie Jay) we were both off our nuts on microdots and he put a tune on that had me filling up and then feeling uphoric and all I think about is Michelle when I hear it. The track takes you down then picks you right up. For Michelle. Enjoy.

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What a tragic story. Heartfelt condolences even though your loss is over 5 years ago the pain never goes away. I lost a 6 month old daughter in 83 to a incurable genetic disease so can only imagine what you went through as I knew she was going to die before her first birthday. I have always been into music and football they are both my hobbies still, one sometimes greater than the other but have always been there. When Michelle died I was in a mess and never really had some music to remember her by as such like you have with the above track. I was already in pieces as my mother had died 3 days after Michelle was born and then Michelle died 6 months later in my arms. Then one day a few years later I was round at at DJ friend of mine ( maybe you will have heard of him Barrie Jay) we were both off our nuts on microdots and he put a tune on that had me filling up and then feeling uphoric and all I think about is Michelle when I hear it. The track takes you down then picks you right up. For Michelle. Enjoy.

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It's amazing how music can stir those emotion's, I've always wanted to try and help those in the same position as me because suddenly there was a case almost monthly about a parent killing their own child/children, I would read the reports and want to get in touch with them but if I tried to explain all this I just don't think it would do anything for them individually as you would know yourself you have to sort your own head out in a way that suit's you.
It doesn't matter how old the child was or in what way they passed on no parent should outgrow their children, and when it happen's you need something there to help you through, you could speak to some people and they just wouldn't understand music getting you through something like this or helping to get you through.

I'm glad you found a song personal enough to remind you of those time's because I firmly believe it help's you no end.
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I believe they are in a better place also but that is opening a completely different subject but I will take comfort in that belief. I suggest if you ever feel compeled to speak to someone who loses children in similair circumstances as you, do. I have councilled a few parents who have lost children, not trained for it, just told them how it was and how I got through the hard times. 5 in all, 2 are now really good friends and believe me them women are hard, it's the males they bottle it up and have admitted to me after chats that they are so glad they can talk to someone as friends don't know what to say, people point and whisper. I have been a shoulder if you will and it has helped, so they say. Can it harm anyone if you speak to them. I don't think so. I'm going to finish here, it's not the thread or place really is it. Just cherish your memories and time spent with your son.

Thrilling reading this Turt.
Decided to listen to the tune first and read your story after. Just to see if I would like it without any influence.
And loved this song I didn't know.
Thanks for sharing this, and nice to see how strong your friendship with Wilks is!

Two heartbreaking storys , happened to a mates daughter a few years back , funeral was probably the worst day I have experienced so far in my life. Good to see your helping others in the same situation ,.

A piece of music I still listen to everyday.

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heart breaking story that . thanks for sharing that . deepest respect mate...

Shaun, please let us know how you get on with the letter.

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Sorry for the long story but it's the only way I can explain my love for this song.
I heard about this project that was being done by LCD Soundsystem in collaboration with Nike where they were making an album to supposedly work out to, I did some digging out of curiosity as I wanted to know what they had churned out as the majority of DFA records is usually a good listen so I eventually found this white label promo cd that had the first 2 tracks on it, I bought it as a bootleg for £8 and it was a bit sketchy but the second track that builds up from the initial space sound just beamed me, what a fucking record and I pre ordered the big double gate album "45:33", when it arrived it was without doubt the best thing music wise I had bought in years but purely for track 2.
I was going through a really intense and shite breakup at the time with someone who I had a son with, she was a complete nutcase and after every visit I'd go back to my apartment and I'd play this and it would just smooth itself out, this record is just my son all over, from the first strike of the piano that fades in low and slow I would sit there and soak it up and be thankful that I had him.
This was 2006 leading into 2007 and I'd been split up a while now but seeing my son every Monday. Wednesday, Friday and 2 full weekends out of the 4 a month which was great, but as time grew she completely lost the plot and throughout 2007 I went through hell with her to get to see him being attacked with pan's and knives when I went round just complete fucking hell, this record was prominent throughout this and in July 2007 I met Kell purely by chance of me being a bit of a sex pest at the time, I would play her this record and it was part of the start of our relationship and eventual marriage, it was there through the great times and the down times.
In the October I finally told my ex that I was seeing someone else to which she went completely scatty and was referred to doctor's and supposedly put on treatment like anti depressants, there was various thing's going on between the 2 families at this time and I went and started a legal process to gain full time access of my son, when this was going through she then claimed that her deterioration was due to her developing cancer and she only had month's to live, and I was approached by her and her family and asked to finish my new relationship and move back in with her full time until she died and then take hold of my son, bearing in mind I fucking hated this woman and her family and I refused as morally it just didn't sit right with me and I never trusted them, we paid in the end to send her to see a specialist and she refused point blank saying that this was her time.
The one day in early December I had a text from her saying to go up as she had something final to tell me, I refused and I was in Wales anyway, that day on December 9th 2007 she murdered my son and then committed suicide.
We found out at a later stage that in one room she had a large knife laid out which was meant for me, then we found out that she lied to my family and hers and she didn't have cancer as it was a ploy to split me up.
Kell was still living in Cardiff at this time and I needed my own space still, During my darkest time's on my own I would open this record and from that first needle drop I would remember everything that I had with my son, all those precious time's were opened up when I played it, it helped me get out of that place and into a new thinking, it's more than just a record and the emotional attachment I have with it is unrivaled.
It was very much my record now and although I put it in a few home mixtapes during that 2007 I didn't share it anymore I just played it on my own whenever I needed it, I proposed to my wife on valentines day 2008 and decided to move forward take what I had and to build on it, through the build up to my wedding in the August I took a box of records to Wilksy's house in Newport (SoulStylist) and we just took a load of E and played each other the records we had, I had to share this record with him, I'm glad I got the chance as I wouldn't have played it to anybody else, he was hooked on it and I could tell it hit him as hard as it hit me the first time I heard it, that emotional tie I've got with it was now shared and he knew what it meant to me, we played it 36 times in a row 7 minutes each time until his neighbours banged the wall, on that night I took it from just being mine to be able to share it, this was my life on vinyl and I could finally see so much good in it that I could play it and feel the joy in it again as opposed to dwelling on a time that hurt so much.
Over the next year or 2 I started DJ'ing again as it was my focus, my release and my way of doing something in Lewis's memory and pushing something good out of it, which is part of how Boogie Cartel come about, because if I hadn't started playing again I wouldn't be spending all this time with Wilksy and our friends and playing records together putting our night on and once it hit home the importance of all this it was without doubt the best decision I had made since I decided to get married.
Which is why I get so much joy out of playing this record out, it's a continuous source of relief, joy, and above all when I play it, it remind's of how I am where I am today and how playing records with Wilksy opened my life back up to the full extent again.
This record touch's me in places that no woman ever could, and fill's gap's in my heart and soul that nothing else ever could, I played this on new years eve again while out and watching it fill the room with love and seeing Wilksys face beam just put's the icing on the cake of this record.
A long one I know but I wanted to explain why it mean's so much and that the power of music can indeed heal.
If your not into music you won't get this post but if your a music head you'll know what I mean.

http://soundcloud.com/captainturtle/new-...eve-2011-boogie

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read this last night..never been so touched by something ive read...been thinking about it on and off all day! heart goes out to you Shaun......really dont know what else to say!